Home – Through the Eyes of My Son

Ben, three years old

Ben, three years old

Today is my son, Ben’s birthday  (I call him “Bub”)– he is 33 years young.  He is the oldest of my children.  The world totally changed for me the day he was born.  Nobody’s going to tell me there is any real responsibility in life until you have a child.  Everything else is simple stuff if you ask me. As I have often said, you aren’t playing in the big leagues until you parent a child.  Ben put me in the big leagues for sure.

Some days I think he is wiser than I am.  I call him an old soul.  Sure, he drives me nuts at times but most often I enjoy listening to his unique view on life.   He’s a little bit liberal where I’m a little bit conservative and he’s often a little bit conservative where I am a little bit liberal.  This makes for some wonderful conversations! I have even learned to enjoy times of silence with him in the last few years.  I believe it is in these moments of silence together that I learn so much about him – merely through being together.

My Wish for my son

Ben and Kathleen visit Chicago

Ben and Kathleen visit Chicago

Ben married a wonderful woman in 2007. Kathleen and I have a great relationship and have shared many moments of commiserating over his quirks and what I gently refer to as his “issues”.  I always remind her that yeah, I birthed him but honey, you chose him!  Ben and Kathleen got engaged in November of 2006 and married one year later.  I needed every day of that year of engagement as I needed time to prepare myself for the mother-son dance at his wedding.  You see I chose a powerful song by Rascal Flatts, My Wish.  It said so eloquently all that I wanted to say to him.  I literally listened to it every day while I exercised or worked in my garden to prepare to dance with him without crying buckets and buckets of tears.  Seriously, I listened to that song several thousand times.  To this day it still chokes me up as it expresses all I wished for him on that day and every day after.

There are many times in the last 33 years that have been special to me.  There are even a few times I regret the situations we found ourselves in as mother and son.  Forget those – I want to talk about the wonderful ones.

My grown-up son is a little bit Fred Sanford, Archie Bunker and Tim, The Tool Man wrapped all in one with a HUGE heart and an incredible analytical mind.  He loves dark beer, slapstick comedy, Civil War history and anything in nature.

From the time I first explored nature with Ben I saw his love for it.  Searching for rocks, walking in the woods, berry gathering – you name it.  We did it together.  I also loved reading with Ben, hearing about his antics with his imaginary friend, My Friend Monkey, working in the yard (he had his own little lawn mower and would follow behind me) and now as an adult simply spending time together in whatever capacity possible.  He has even unknowingly given me the title for my book I am writing, And so…The Shadow Woman Emerged as a few years ago he gave me a book for Mother’s Day on Native American History.  This book gave me the inspiration for the title of my own book.  Thank you dear son.

So, today is his birthday.  I wanted to give him a gift from my heart so I decided to write about him on my Blog.  I asked him to give me his top five things that are important to him in his home.  I wanted to hear directly from him what they were in order to write a post from his point of view.  What I got was oh so much deeper.  I found a new side of my son.  His words he wrote told me who he is in a way I never paid attention to.  What an incredible gift he gave me.  While reading his top five, I got to visualize him deep in the woods where he finds the most peace.  While reading his top five I felt closer to him than I ever have.  I could hardly read through it all as the tears flowed for this man that my son has become.  What started out as a gift to my son (this post) has turned out to be a precious gift for me.  Clearly, it exemplifies that it is in the giving that we receive the most.

HOME according to Ben

Here are the answers to the question I poised to him the other day of what five things were most important to him in his home.  Except for a few typos he made, I have copied what he wrote word for word.  I hope you enjoy!

  1. Keeping a clean and organized home.  Without that my life outside of home feels discombobulated and stressful.  It is easier to do things when you see them than it is to procrastinate and try to do them all in one day- plus you never know what else will come up.  I try to improve at least one thing in my home each day.
  2. I am not a hoarder, but a bit of a pack rat.  I don’t like to waste things that can be used later.  When I fix things around the house I try to use things that I already have instead of buying new.  For example, my wife and I got a new knife set for Christmas one year and we put the old one deep in a kitchen cabinet.  I decided to sharpen them one day and guess which set we use now?  It seems as though sometimes fewer is better.
  3. Fire.  I love fire.  We have a fireplace in our living room with what I think is a beautiful mantle.  There is nothing better in the winter than a few beers and a roaring wood burning fireplace.  We also have a fire pit in our backyard.  I designed it, dug it and built it myself.  It declines from the front to the back inside the pit and the rock wall does the opposite.  With the absence of very strong winds, it always draws in the same direction.  I specifically planned it this way with both the way it is placed in the yard and the seating around it.  The fire pit always draws a crowd when friends are over but I can also sit there by myself for hours and feed my love for nature.
  4. My garage and tools.  There are few things I enjoy more than tinkering in my garage.  I have quite a collection of tools and enjoy doing everything from hands on tasks to fix up the home to simply cleaning old tools and arranging them in order so I can find them when they are needed.
  5. Guns.  As I am writing this I am sitting in a tree stand in South Carolina with a deer rifle across my lap.  Don’t worry, I am still peeking up every few seconds and scanning the woods with my eyes looking for meat.  I love everything about guns.  How they look, feel and sound.  I have an extensive (probably excessive to most) collection of guns.  Everything from old style black powder rifles to the new stuff you see in the movies.  Each one is special to me in its own way.  I enjoy shooting them in target practice and in hunting, cleaning and disassembling them and taking them apart.  I will never have too many.
Enjoying a fire

Enjoying a fire

Ben (Bub), you already know what my wish is for you today ~ just listen to the song once more.  Happy birthday and love forever and always…


For any of you reading this today, humor me – google the lyrics to ”My Wish”.  Read the words carefully and then hand them to the universe as a prayer for every person you encounter.  Wishing that life were all that someone wants it to be is a powerful wish.  Reach out and touch someone today with the words of this song.

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Jamie Balzer

About Jamie Balzer

Jamie has worked in the field of interior decorating for over 10 years and has owned B&A Interiors, LLC for almost as long. Partnered with her daughter, Sammi Blake, Jamie has been honored to work in homes and businesses across the country. Knowledge and experience is but part of what she has to offer. As a young girl, Jamie intuitively understood that the placement of things, the color of things, and the arrangement of things evoke certain feelings. Working together with this knowledge, experience and intuition Jamie has answered the call to her life’s purpose- teaching the spiritual truth of what she believes- “Everything begins in the home”. As a branch of B&A Interiors, LLC, Living In Perfect Harmony emerged to teach her philosophy. Jamie believes, “if you live peacefully and beautifully at home, you are well, your family is well and that helps to make the world a better place”. Jamie's most passionate role is as a mother and grandmother. Jamie currently lives and works in the Chicago area but also continues her business in Charlotte, NC as both a decorator and a homespace coach. She is certified in Reiki Therapy which she believes broadens her success as a homespace coach. Jamie is available for private consultations, lectures and seminars.

14 thoughts on “Home – Through the Eyes of My Son

  1. Loved the post. I can actually hear Ben’s voice as I read his top 5. Can’t wait for the day for you guys to meet my child and we all relax around Ben’s fire pit. Miss you lots. Congrats to 33 wonderful years as a mother!

    • Blair, if you can hear his voice you know the man well! Doesn’t his top five really ring true for how you would characterize Ben? I know those of us in the States miss having you here. I am loving watching Ava grow over the months you post pictures on Facebook and talk about her in your Blog. She is precious. You know to enjoy each and every moment of each and every day with her. Truly, it is as if you blink and she will grow up. I hope to come to South Africa to see all of you but, know that we all hope you come back to us soon! All the best…

  2. Happy birthday Ben!! Scott and I are planning a fire pit for our backyard. …we might have to consult you. Love you and miss you! Hope you had a great day!

    • Jackie, I know Ben is reading this. He really did a wonderful job with his fire pit. I have enjoyed many gatherings there myself. Funny, whenever they entertain (and they do a lot as Kathleen is an incredible hostess) if a fire is going in the backyard, everyone leaves the house or the patio and heads there. Fire has the power to bring you to it. It is amazing. Be sure to call him for any helpful hints although you are married to a pro builder!!!

  3. Hope you had a great Birthday, Uncle Jimmy and I tried calling you, maybe you were out having fun. Love your top 5 things. : )))

    • Jimmy, as your mother I just have to say that nothing, absolutely positively nothing makes my heart sing more than to know that your brother truly is your best friend! Now as for the collecting…

  4. Hi Jamie…What a precious blog. I have 3 sons, all grown with their own kids. I so many memories too, teaching to fish, catching crawdads, catching crickets and caterpillars to listen to and watch evolve. They have turned into wonderful and loving men. I feel so blessed to have them. Now I mostly have granddaughters and it is so different. Still came the caterpillars and pill bugs as pets. But also delightful fairy gardens and using nature pieces to decorate tables and make pictures. I love being grandma.
    Joy Stark

    • Thank you so much Joy. It is funny how I feel like I know you even though we have never met. It sounds very much like we are kindred spirits! Anyway, I am thrilled to know how much you are enjoying grandchildren and passing on to them the love of nature you taught your sons. Truly, there is magical healing found in Nature. Having been privy to this healing firsthand, I plan to spend the rest of my life immersed in nature and will do all that I can to teach this to my grandchildren. My darling Ansley (God’s Littliest Angel) was here for a few days and just left today. I am blessed that I had uninterrupted time with her for several days to walk outside with her in silent conversation, discover leaves with her and breathe in the gloriously fresh air with her. Treasures for sure!!! Nothing, absolutely positively nothing beats the outdoors. Keep reading…

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  6. Happy belated Birthday Ben!!! I have always looked up to your “rough around the edges” appearance knowing how inside you are a huge teddy bear with one of the biggest hearts I’ve seen in a man! Kathleen is a lucky woman to be your wife, and I am proud to be a part of your family!

    Aunt Jamie, I love this post! While sitting on the couch with Tanner sound asleep in his crib and Hazel snoaring curled up beside me, I can’t help but wipe away the tears streaming down my face! I can only imagine my relationship with Tanner in thirty years! Some days I wonder why God allowed me to become a mother and others I thank God for life’s little “bonus” because Tanner has changed me inside and out; my heart, mind, body and soul were all completely altered the day I held him in my arms for the first time. Through all the stages and milestones he has gone through in a mere year, I feel more and more change within myself.

    And you are exactly right, no one knows true responsibility until having raised a child and I will even go as far as to say that most men never truly understand/feel it… Because afterall, a mother is always on call!

    • Cathy, what beautiful words you write about motherhood. I am sure every woman out there that has a child knows what you mean . Enjoy every moment you can in this role as a parent. It is the hardest role you will ever have and at the same time it is the most rewarding. Live in the moment with Tanner!

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